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That was strange, and kind of relieving -- if not in bad taste. I'm feeling much better -- and Mason's overjoyed. I haven't been able to take him on long walks lately. But the more active I've gotten, the more --

Well.

Something I said to Martha when I got back here made me think on it. I called this place home. And the more I think about it the more I think I was right saying that. This place, for all its ups and downs, for all its craziness, is my home now. Not just a home away from home. I was born off the coast of Jamaica, but it's not my home anymore. I was the last Adams to sail those seas, and I'm sure it was time for more to come and take my place. I don't think I'll ever go back.

Sometimes I start to think I really won't ever leave. Not forever.

And I don't think it's a bad thing. Maybe because I chose to come here. It might be different for others who didn't get that choice -- and for them the object, I guess, is to leave eventually. To get their second chance and start a new life.

But what about making a life here?

[Private to West]

How are you feeling?

[Private to Billy]

Thanks for watching Mason and King Charles. ...How are you?

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Well, if you happen to live in a maximum security prison whose owners perform twisted experiments on both the inmates and the staff.

You don't know that's what the Admiral does.

I'm saying that would replicate the conditions. There aren't floods anywhere else, and you're not trapped in a flying steel coffin with people who have been specifically singled out as dangerous regularly unless your world is very different then mine.

I felt much the same my first year here.

You haven't seen the horrors I saw in my first year. [severely] We hit a port so hard that even the Barge itself was endangered by it. A mass of Inmates and Wardens were left behind, and afterward almost everyone who could took off.

But one of the Wardens -- came from a time well after mine. Told me something that's fairly true no matter where you are.

I'd love to be fucking left behind.

What?

[Plainly] Shit happens.

[She sits back in her chair] And you don't want to be left behind there. Not if you don't like losing your mind.

It's been long since lost, I think.

You're still you, aren't you?

Debateable. Just tell me what the port was.

It was called Silent Hill.

Was it silent?

Sometimes.

That's not really helpful.

If it was light, it was mostly quiet. Eerily so. It was an empty village.

There isn't a point in building suspense, either it's going to make an impression or it isn't. Just tell me.

The place was completely desolate. And not like -- people packed up and left and the settlement was just abandoned. It looked like everyone just disappeared right in the middle of what they were doing.

And it snowed ash.

But then the place would go dark -- sometimes at random. And when that happened everything rotted out and creatures came out.

The place knew what scared you, what you were guilty of, and it used it against you.

Old god. I've killed one of those.

[He flexes his fingers which should definitely be holding a weapon, dammit, or something's throat at least.]

We're off the subject. How could you like it here if it's put you in situations you hated so much?

I ran into a lot of situations I hated back where I came from, too. [She shifts] And I like to think that the good outweighs the bad.

What good? All I'm getting from this place is a few tedious months of waiting to die again. I'd almost rather have it over with.

Have you made any friends at all?

What is this, my first day of kindergarten? No. No I have not made any friends.

You know, if you don't at least make an effort to find something in this place that's pleasant for you, then you really have no one to blame but yourself for that.

Tch.

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